Kimm's ♥

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My love for gdragon will be resurrected . (: <3 . But not now. I'm sooooo ~ lethagic . boo boo boo . Mye coming. Wont be updating again =x. Not like i did. But still. I'll have a proper proper post when i have time. :3. teehee.

fuck you. you are nothing to me you are useless. get over it. you cant beat me. so might as well give up. youre a hypocrite. you know that ? (: come on. if you're unhappy with my own actions speak up for yourself boy. backstabbing gets you no where. what are you unhappy about anyway. the fact that i did whats best ? or that youre just too immature. whats the point of trying to salvage something thats already dead ? Use your brain before you speak to me boy. Buck up before you dare , speak to me.

My love for gdragon will be resurrected . (: <3 . But not now. I'm sooooo ~ lethagic . boo boo boo . Mye coming. Wont be updating again =x. Not like i did. But still. I'll have a proper proper post when i have time. :3. teehee.

fuck you. you are nothing to me you are useless. youre a better me ? get over it. you cant beat me. so might as well give up. youre a hypocrite. you know that ? (: come on. if you're unhappy with my own actions speak up for yourself boy. backstabbing gets you no where. what are you unhappy about anyway. the fact that i did whats best ? or that youre just too immature. whats the point of trying to salvage something thats already dead ? Use your brain before you speak to me boy. Buck up before you dare , speak to me.

HELLO (: . Let's see let's see. Took a glimpse of my previous posts. So violent so violent. In reality i'm not that violent okay ? But yeah i stand my ground. I know where i stand in society. If you mess with me. I'm not afraid to snoop down to your level and beat you at your own game (: . Hmm . Recently ..  Let's see. Mid-year-exams (MYE) are round the corner. Tomorrow. Actually >_>. MEH ~ Haven't done much studying. ( Going hardcore study soon. ohnooosss gianormous eyebags. ADDITIONAL GIANORMOUS. nouhhhhhhhh ) -sigh-. Lifes been kinda nice. (: . hmm .. meh meh meh . Gonna go mug now (: BYEEE. P/s . Facebook will be reactivated as of 30th April (: . My official one month of being facebook-less. teehee. (: .

To you. I know. i was nothing to you. But couldnt you act like you cared. A little bit ? You didnt even bother. Repeating that we're bestfs ? comeon la. did you even treat me like one ? Fuck. You. You are nothing to me now. Please. Stop telling others about what happened. You had it coming. You chose him over me. Look where at got you. And yeah. How does it feel ? its you and you against the world.

You dont see me abandoning you . Or dragging you out to find my boyf. You dont see me . Suddenly changing plans. You see. You're always my priority. What the fuck am i t you ? If changing the plans .. If it happened once. I would've been fine. Go do some self reflection. How many times have you done that to me ? When have i ever been your priority ? When have you ever confided in me ? This is what you call best friends ? My tone . My mockery. Obviously it hurts. You dont know what i go through . How im effortlessly tossed aside when he comes along ? When he talks t you ? You dont get it. You realized you ruined the only day we actually have together right ? one to one outing. you just had to bring him in. you wanted to leave me alone ? How long've you known me. You know . oh. YOU SHOULD . know that when im moodless and you leave me alone. what happens. It is the truth . Admit it. You changed. You changed for him. Someone you barely know. You proved it. You chose him over me. You had your chance. You blew it. I gave you repetitive chances. Truth be told , I'm literally waiting for you to try to resolve this conflict. You dont know how pathetic i feel now. I lost my best friend to a stranger. And even when i try .. It's backfiring on me. You still choose not to TRY. NOT EVEN TO FUCKING TRY TO RESOLVE THIS FUCKING CONFLICT . WHAT THE FUCK . AM I SERIOUSLY NOTHING TO YOU ? AM I ? WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO . SUICIDE ? WRITE A NOTE ? CONFRONT YOU ? I HAVE FLAWS . IM AWARE. I TRY TO CHANGE. UNLIKE YOU. THATS ALL YOU CAN SAY ? IM SORRY ? THAT CHANGES ANYTHING HOW . YOU DONT EVEN TELL ME THAT YOUR SORRY. YOU POSTED IT IN YOUR BLOG. Yeah. SEE. I BLOODY MEMORIZED YOUR BLOG. I DOUBT YOU EVEN REMEMBER MINE. All my thoughts ? Could you have tolerated ? No , Would you have KEPT IT TO YOURSELF ? Reading your blog and his blog. Wow. You showed him the text. Bravo , well done. (: . If i really wanted to let it out at you. I would've said it to you face to face. You dont know me. Do you ? (: . I dont hate welicia by the way. Neither do i hate you. But after reading your blog ? And his blog ? I think im going to .. If you dont try to do anything .. Cant you just talk to me ? Ask .. Anything .. JUST .. Try.. Why cant you try ..? Why is it that im always the one thats in wrong ? Why cant you just .. give in for once. Why cant you try to understand ? Why is he more important then me ? WHY ? What did i do wrong ? What do i lack ? Sincerity ? Love ? Caring ? Concern ? What ? TELL ME . I NEED TO KNOW . YOU DONT GET IT . I DID THAT. TO TRY .. TO GET YOU TO TALK TO ME. WHAT DID YOU DO . YOU JUST . Gave up ? Thanked me for being there ? What ? Is that all im worth to you ? ' Thk u for tolerating and being there for me even though I myself was not there for u ' . Is that all ? Tell me you're joking ? Tell me you're going to try ? Dont tell me you've given up ? On our friendship ? Like that ? So thats all im worth to you ? I get it. And yes. Im still foolishly waiting for you ro do something about it . I wont stop believing you'll change. Even though that seems impossible. Come on . I know .. No .. i dont .. do i really even have a space in your heart ? Or am i just suddenly visible and existant when you need me ? No. When you need someone to accompany you.. How many essays have i written for you ? What do i get in return . I dont expect essay for essay. I just .. want a reply .. to all the issues i addressed .. Why cant you reply me .. Why ... Oh. I'm still waiting. By the way. For you to resolve this. Stupid i know. I just cant stop HOPING AND PRAYING YOU'LL REALIZE . _l_. -_-.

I did no such thing as to address you as a hypocrite. But if you claim to me saying that. Then you shall be a hypocrite. And i think the main reason why im angry isnt because of you. its because phoenix doesnt have any priorities other then you. Isnt that lovely ? (: . I knew her longer. I was closer to her. I did everything she wanted. But im treated as dust in the wind. Lovely isnt it ? (: . You had enough ? Talk to me about it. Cry me a river. Try to clarify. Why dont you. Another phoenix ? Blog ? ~.~ . I had enough of you giving me false accusations. I did not death glare you. But i will if you falsely accuse me again. Anyway i doubt you'll get to see this either. And you actually went to read what i typed to phoenix ? Privacy much. ._. . Come on . Dont you wna try to resolve whatever conflicts im having with you too ? (: .

All you mother fuckers should be dead to me by now. 

Extirpation. Magnanimous. Tranquil. Boisterous. Melancholy. Disconsolate. Dejection. Phlegmatic. Affliction. Disquiet. Hysteria. Lamented. Deplorable. Dolorous. Calamitous. Pernicious. Deleterious. Martyrdom. Forlorn. Devastation.The never ending list. A million words. A million meanings. Describing me. For me to know. No one to find out.  -Kimm.

Hello (: I'm back from the pit of death. I guess. Well. Part of me at least. Hmm. Lots of emotional conflicts. Making me think twice about everything I've done till now. Mahh woman's attached t someone. Last long alright ? (: schools a drag. Conflicts are horror. Lifes a game where we all lose in the end. Live life t th fullest. Yadda yadda. Eat. Yaddayadda. Meh. I'm honestly. Not thinking at the moment. I don't really know why. And what can I do t revert t my normal self. Sigh ttm. Mm. Let's see ... not going t bore whoever reading this piece of crap I call a blog t death with mediocre everyday events. Meh. Shall blog and rant more frequently .. ~ I honestly don't know what you want. I don't know what t do neither. Everything I seem t do backfires. Gosh. I don't know. All I know is that I'm going t be strong. And independent. I don't care what you think. I don't care about what any of you buggers think. It's my life. My way. Fuck. Hellno. Forget it. If you really choose t side others. Fine. Its alright. Whatever. Just dont ......

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I'm trapped in this infinite darkness of my mind within the fourwalls of this inevitable fate. Stuck in this repetitive cycle of tears and dejection.  There's a black hole where my heart's suppose to be. I've lost all reasons to express my affection or concern. Should I return to my phlegmatic self? To be filled with devastation and feel melancholy once more? This cruel dead heartless world . Is it really worth the pain ? Our demented , disconsolate love story . The excruciating pain from my shattered hearts and broken dreams engulf me still. I've lost my sanity . Oh almighty bringer of death and affliction , won't you be my magnanimous savior and save me from this forlornly plight ?

Hi . Prepare for a SUPER random post. -revives blog- . Too bored , nothing t do . Shalllll revive blog :o . Mm .. Happy cheena new year ! :3 , curse y'all get manymany angpauuuus , win manymany moneh . :3. -Random lyrics- & we go on and on and on and on and on ! WE DONT BELONG .. We dont belong belong t anyone .. The pain of love will last forever . Promise me . promise me . We celebrate the pain together , the pain of love . love . love . I literally have no idea what to write about . Everything under the skies huh .. mm .. i love my woman :3 . phoenix tan . heh . i cherish friends ? i derive pleasure from people's suffering . Im obese ? Im lazy . Im dumb . Im ignorant . I dont learn from mistakes . Im inperfect . I dont wish t be perfect . I dont want a billion friends . Im fine with a handful of trustful ones . heh . -Random lyrics . HUMAN CONNECT TO HUMAN . HOW CAN I CONNECT T YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.- mm .. lets see.. i really wonder who actually reads this blog o_o . nevermind . empty space for me to rant on . Valentine's coming . Woman's birthday coming. mm .. I realllllly hope i can take o level english this year .. and i really hope ill get at least a b3 for maths .. T_T ... How how how . Im those kind of .. I WANT BUT I DONT WANNA WORK MY ASS OFF FOR IT . I need t change . CHANGE .. CHANGEEEEEE -screams- . Let's see .. what can i rant on that i havent rant on yet . -thinks-. I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT TOOOOO . But at the rate im eating . -awkward silence ..- mm .. its been rainy i guess . i've been loving the weather . everyone's falling sick . please take care of yourself , drink loads of water . get sufficient rest <: . I like my fingernail colours , bling bling bling . i have retarded toes . -smiles- . Expanders are making my front teeth have a gianormous hole , kimm is unhappy :3 . i dislike my fringe nao , kinda curly at th end . DONG DONG DONG CHIANG DONG DONG DONG CHIANG . ~_~ .. -finds things to type about- i likes cookies ..? i dont know already Dx . no one reads this anyway . heh . BYEEEEE .